The things I notice might be things that other people dismiss. But I’ve decided to take them personally, which is part of this practice.
For instance, we’re on vacation at the beach this week. Every morning about 7:30 I walk to the ocean by myself and sit and enjoy just sitting, watching the waves, the sand crabs, and whatever comes my way. The waves come in, go out, stand out, then merge again into the larger body of water. They’re a fantastic representation of the concept of flow.
During my morning beach time this week, I’ve seen dolphins – which I love. And every day, there have been more. That delights me!
I know I have a choice to think, “How nice. Dolphins. They’re plentiful this time of year.” Or, I can take it a step further and say, “Thank you, Angels, for bringing me this delightful gift of seeing a lot of dolphins, which I love.” I choose to take it personally, just as if someone had given me a gift. Because it is.
Two days ago, I was having fun watching dragonflies zoom around me as I walked to the beach. I sent out a thought invitation to the dragonflies to come closer and visit as I sat on the sand. Within about a minute, a green-spotted dragonfly landed on my wrist and stayed for about 10 minutes. I admired the dragonfly, thanked him or her, and enjoyed the little gift of personal attention that I received. By the way, that’s the only time the whole week that a dragonfly came that close, or landed on me or anyone in my family.
Think of it this way – if you really could use a little pick-me-up present, and then someone gives you one, you don’t ignore it or dismiss it, do you? You express your delight, and say thank you. Otherwise, the giver might not be so inclined to bring you want you ask for next time, because it sure seems like you didn’t really receive the gift – and it seems that maybe you’re not so open to receiving after all.
If I ask for something, I figure I should be totally open to receiving it, rather than not really expecting anything, or even, too distracted to notice when I do. In fact, I’m not really “asking” as much as stating that I’m open to receiving. Asking comes from a place of lack or want. I am not interested in receiving more lack or want! I’m open to receiving a flow of blessings, wonderful surprises, and abundance from the Universe. I’m ready to offer the kind of assistance that’s best for those who come to me for guidance, learning, or a Reiki session. I’m grateful to share the gifts and ideas I have to help make life better for others. That’s how I live in the flow, as the ocean waves have been reminding me all week.
It’s like a game, and it makes life more fun to play it this way.
I know people who see their life the opposite way. Something bad happens and they say that the Universe hates them, or that’s what they get for trying, or something similarly self-defeating. They go around expecting the next shoe to drop, and so, guess what, it does. And then they feel justified, like the world just confirmed they are right about the way they understand their life. And, yep, they are. Why? Because they expected crap, and they got crap. That doesn’t mean that they deserve any more crap than I do. But it does mean that the more you expect something, the more likely it is to happen, because you put all this mental energy into seeing the worst, and then put emotional energy (which is actually fear) into expecting the worst, so the Universe responds by manifesting what’s expected.
Turn that around by expecting the best, and anticipating it with gratitude, and a little excitement, and notice what happens. Try practicing living in the flow, and taking the gifts that come personally.
If something happens that you don’t want, or don’t like, that’s not a personal affront. Instead, it’s a chance to be open to something better, an opportunity to learn, reflect, or motivation to try something new. It’s a gift of another kind.
The waves come in, and go out. The tide moves the entire ocean further and back again. The tiny and massive ocean life are immersed in the motion of the flow. And for this week, so are we. My intention is to bring this lesson, and the energy of the ocean experience, back with me when we leave for home on Saturday.
My kids are regular kids. When your kids are energy-aware, though, play has an added dimension to it. There are more topics that end up incorporated into their role-play games. The perfect example is what we did yesterday. My kids have been developing a skit called Chakra Tony’s Metaphysical Outlet. Yesterday we video recorded it and put it up on Youtube.
The reason this is significant is mostly the reminder that we should never take ourselves too seriously. Yes, I’m passionate about Reiki and deeply spiritually connected to this powerful work. But it’s also important to remember to have a sense of humor. We can poke fun at ourselves and have fun and that’s important too.
Things in my personal life are a little stressful, as things sometimes are. So being able to step back, laugh and have fun, helps me be in the flow instead of captured by stress and worry. Thanks to my kids, I get plenty of reminders of this important point.
Now I’m passing it on to you. Enjoy.
My mother-in-law, Lillian Langholt, passed last Saturday, August 21. She died at home, with family nearby. My mom, dad, husband, and children were at her side constantly for her last three days while she struggled with the process. We gave her love, soothing words, and Reiki as much as we could. Hospice was brought in to offer additional support. It was very hard to tell the kids that Nana was going to die. We held each other and cried after we told them. When she passed, it was somewhat of a relief because she was not actively struggling anymore. The funeral and the rest of the week happened quickly, but felt like time was moving slowly also. I guess that is the nature of such things.
My kids are doing well. They are grieving in their own ways. My oldest has been a little short-tempered lately. My son had been chewing the inside of his lip and it got swollen and infected. I took him to the dentist. He also cried in his sleep one night and I held him in my bed, giving Reiki to help him. He didn’t remember it in the morning. My youngest daughter had some potty issues – some accidents that were uncharacteristic of her. We understand. We know it’s a process that will take time to heal.
One thing that I know has been most powerful from the experience is that my kids will always know the value of what you do for family. No matter how little or much my mother-in-law needed us, we were there for her. There were no questions. We were there. Every day, as long as she needed, until it was round-the-clock and even then. We were there. My kids didn’t want to leave her side, even when she couldn’t acknowledge their presence for more than a few seconds at a time. They saw, lived, and understood that this is how a family cares for each other. I am moved and grateful for the opportunity to instill this value through our actions.
There is yet much to do in terms of logistical follow-up that will take probably close to a year. The house, all the stuff in it, leftover bills and accounts, paperwork. Many projects await, and we are dedicating a portion of each day to starting to work on it.
We are also grateful that Evan had this time to be able to devote to caring for his mom, as I mentioned in previous posts. Perhaps now he will be in the right alignment for the perfect job and him to connect. Divine timing. He will never have the guilt that would have come from needing to work, not having vacation time, while his mom needed him. He was there. It’s a blessing.
Interesting was that the night before her funeral, I was online and a friend who I hadn’t talked to in a while suddenly intiated a chat with me to tell me that she was in labor. I wished her blessings on her birth experience (she had a healthy and beautiful baby boy later that evening), and was truly thankful that the perfect timing of her chat was there to remind me that life begins anew, even as one life is over.
And due to the series of events this past week, I’ve had the opportunity to do some thinking about life, death and transition. I’ve come to some conclusions that I would like to share. As always, it’s a work in progress, as life is a journey of learning. This is where my thoughts have landed me:
The soul is a part of Source – we are ONE – our soul is our God aspect. It is housed in the body so we can experience life, but not separate – ever -from Source.
The feeling of being separate is an illusion so we can experience life in physical form. It’s a gift.
Meditative practices tune us into the awareness of ourselves as One, but we have to be grounded also, so we can experience life in this body we are gifted with as long as we can.
Physical sensations are not available to the spiritual aspect of ourselves. This is the gift of life:
to sense,taste, touch, love,
relate to others.
Embrace this gift and you show appreciation for it.
live, learn, love
this is the meaning of life (in my humble opinion.)
So LIVE. Embrace the gift of life in this physical form. Death is a separation from the physical form. It is not the end, but it is a separation from the chance to live in this physical world. One can live a balanced life by experiencing and appreciating the beauty of life we feel through our earth-bound five senses, and also sensing and appreciating our Source-selves through meditative practices that help us renew our awareness of this connection. For me, Reiki does this and is even more profoundly meaningful for me because it allows me to help others feel it too, and I can facilitate their opportunity to receive healing energy when they are receptive.
Life ends, life begins, God bless life. Amen.
Last weekend, my hubby and our 7 and 5 year olds and I went camping at the Starwood Festival. We stayed in a tent, sleeping on the ground in sleeping bags, camping rustic w/ no electricity. I had been invited to teach Distance Healing and Reiki for Parents, which I felt very honored about. The Starwood Festival is a Neo-Pagan clothing-optional festival which was a two hour drive from here. I had never heard of it before being invited, but spent some time on their website learning about it before we went. Needless to say, it was an experience.
Although we knew the clothing optional aspect, nothing quite prepares you for the reality until you see folks taking advantage of the optional aspect. We gave the kids a hasty lecture not to point and stare, and told them that after the festival, these same people were going home to put on clothes and go to work again.
As far as my classes went, well, one was scheduled at the same time as the ironic Church of the Subgenius lecture, so that meant that two people came while the rest of everyone went to that other event. Two interested people, yes, but not as many as I had anticipated (and prepared materials for). My second course had one participant. She, too, was interested in what I had to share, but I had hoped that more would’ve shown up. The weather was wet, rainy, and very muddy. I think that may have affected the turnout. So professionally speaking, it wasn’t what I had anticipated.
There was a great set of concerts at night, though! Alex Bevan played, followed by the amazing Raquy and the Cavemen. We stayed until the kids begged us to put them to bed. Then we huddled in our sleeping bags while the all-night drumming went on just down the road from our tent. While drumming is cool, there was not a lot of sleep to be had that night.
We did enjoy hanging out and talking with other …clothed…people during a potluck meal time, and over breakfast. The kids also had a blast, just being in a new environment.
We also came home a day early because huge thunderstorms with hail were being predicted and we didn’t want to deal with the weather and more mud. It was a good call. We drove through three thunderstorms on the way home.
So how was it? As far as family experiences and getaway adventures go, pretty great. As far as professional contacts and teaching goes…less so. But the most telling part about the success of the weekend was when my husband said yesterday, “You know, if we go again next year, I could teach Morning Yoga.”
So there ya go.
This week, I have been overwhelmed by people who came into my life at the exact time they were needed. Also, Evan, my husband had an experience worth sharing that he described as spiritual. That is rare for him, and my readers here probably know that already 🙂
First I want to say that I am a person who struggles to find patience. I get all of these ideas and want to make them happen now. I take the leap, and hope that I land where I’m going. Sometimes I feel frustrated that things don’t happen exactly when I want, or feel I need, them to. It can be hard for me to shake it off and have faith that it’s all exactly right.
So what happened this week?
I spent a day feeling frustrated and worried about things. Business, money, and feeling impatient. Chatting with some friends about it, I had an idea that my beautiful new website could use something to make it better, but what, I didn’t know. So I posted on Twitter asking for an expert in marketing and web design to help. And I received a gift.
Helena Jackson, (click her name for her website), my Group Leader in the Distance Healing Network, contacted me via Facebook. I didn’t know she does this work, but she sure does, and she is the perfect person to help me. A fellow Reiki Master, and someone who really cares, she has already begun getting me thinking about many things that can help me improve my website. Look for great things to happen in the near future. Thank you Helena – you are a wonderful gift.
Then, a friend from Facebook, Fred Krazeise,(click his name) got in touch with me. We shared a series of emails and some distance energy healing. Fred is a coach, massage therapist, and energy healer. He is truly amazing, caring, and loving, and he gently took me under his wing to coach me on some ways to improve my outlook and find that necessary path to patience. I encourage everyone to check out Fred’s webpage. Fred, you are a gift and I’m so grateful.
Now about Evan (my husband!). The other day, out of the blue entirely, Evan said to me “I had a spiritual experience.” I admit I almost fell on the floor. But instead, I listened to him tell me all about it. I asked him if he would write it in his own words to share here. He agreed. The universe gave Evan a gift, and I share it with all of you here. So welcome Evan, and thank you for being a guest on my Reiki Awakening blog. Here is Evan’s story in his own words:
I work for a large community hospital that is in the process of a massive restructuring on all levels. Many positions have been eliminated and persons let go with two weeks pay an health benefits for another month. My own position had been eliminated and I had to bid on a new job.
The process had been going on for months with little information coming from senior management. Essentially, my anxiety has increased exponentially during this time.
Last week I applied for two jobs and sat through two 20 minute interviews even though I had to endure five 60 min interviews to get my current position. Both ended with a vague acknowledgment that I would know the results within the middle of the following week.
Last Saturday I was driving my children to see a movie. All during the drive, I was obsessed with fears of losing my job, not being able to provide for my family, and feeling essentially worthless. I got a brief reprieve during the 90 minutes of watching the film, but during the drive back those feelings came back full force. I began to think that I would be out of a job, I would lose my home, and my family would lose their healthcare.
Then my thoughts shifted. I realized that I did not want to live in fear anymore and that this was a terrible thing for administration to put people through – this constant fear and anxiety. At that precise moment, I felt a wave of warm energy wash over me, and all my fear and anxiety vanished. I began smiling. As a test, I tried to focus on my fears again to try to bring them back, but it did not work – they were gone.
For the first time I’m approaching work with no fear and full acceptance. What the energy represents, I’m not sure. It could be giving me just what I needed at the time. It could be the universe finally allowing me to let go. It could be a process setting the stage for something greater. Whatever, brought it, I am truly thankful.
And there’s more gifts. Last night, promtped by some friends on Twitter and a feeling of urgency I get sometimes when I feel my guides are pushing me in a direction, I decided to make a LOA (Law of Attraction) list. This list is a list of what I want to accomplish and see happen in my life. I wrote it with deadlines (in my typical impatient way – lol) and as if they were already there. There were 12 items on my list. I didn’t know what to do then, so I went to bed. Today, two of the items have come to happen. I was offered to write paid posts for a new Life123.com blog which likely will include me being able to write on Reiki, and after making one phone call, I will be teaching a 4 session Reiki for Parents course at my local library. Wow. I’m awed and thankful. I’ll keep you posted on the rest of the list. 🙂
And more gifts, although it’s not my birthday…
Dan Doviddio wrote about his Reiki healing session from me on his blog, Seeking Good Vibrations. Check it out here. I am so glad to have received such positive media coverage lately (for more, check my previous post or links on the RA website).
An accomplishment: My first Reiki Awakening Newsletter is now published and emailed out. It includes an article, a special, and a featured attunement. If you’d like to be on the mailing list, please sign up via the ReikiAwakening.com website at the bottom.
Peace and may the Universe gift you all this week as well.
Today marks one year since I took the Usui Reiki Master/ Teacher level course (read my post from a year ago here) and attunement at Ursuline College. This has been a very eventful and enlightening year of self discovery, sharing, healing, and leaps of faith. I’ve met amazing people, shared healings, attunements, guidance, learning and celebrated the many ways that Reiki can improve one’s life. It’s been amazing. I’m truly grateful.
This past week, my husband asked me to do a channeled reading for him. This was a big step and it signifies the way he has grown along with me, moving from skeptical observer to staunch supporter. I was nervous, but had a strong and profound experience as I contacted guidance and typed what I received. I was given much more than I had asked, and we were both moved by the results. This experience brought to light the ways in which we’ve become a “Reiki family,” making Reiki a regular part of our home life and interactions with each other, and strengthening our family on all levels. With the two of us and the four children attuned to Reiki, there are new ways for us to grow together and help others. The appreciation I feel is overwhelming.
My blog is my journal of all that has happened in my energetic awareness so far, and the ways in which I have attempted to share my experiences with others. Sharing has been part of my growth, and I thank all who have taken an interest and offered me encouragement.
I intend the next year to be one in which I reach more people, teach energy healing that fits each person, connect with energy, guidance and angels on higher levels, learn more, and grow in as yet unimagined ways. Bringing energy healing to others is clearly my path and I am truly blessed to be accepting and owning it with love and gratitude for each moment.
I invite all who are curious about distance healing to contact me. If you are looking to find your path, I would love to help you. Thank you for the opportunity to meet and connect with you.
Please explore my blog. Share experiences, comment, and read about the teaching, channeled readings, healing, attunements, and energy-charged healing stones I am blessed to offer.
Peace and light.
I have some nice news… My mother-in-law, (who I’ve mentioned here before) has not had conclusive results the few times I’ve given her Reiki, (and thus has said repeatedly that Reiki “doesn’t work” for her, she doesn’t feel it, etc.). Well last night she was mentioning some muscular type pain in her legs and I offered her Reiki, said “couldn’t hurt” and she agreed. After a few minutes, I commented that my hands were tingling quite a lot, and she surprisedly exclaimed that her feet were too. Then, she said, “And you know what? The pain is completely gone!” She was quite surprised, and I was sooooo glad!! I guess patience and gentle persistence can pay off.
Also, when channeling Reiki lately, I’ve been more consciously asking that the angels and guides of the recipient be present and assist in the healing for this person. Whenever I’ve done so, I’ve felt much stronger energy sensations in my hands, and at times, saw golden lights/ shapes moving behind my closed eyelids. I would like to “see” more but perhaps this is a step in that direction. My hands are most sensitive to Reiki energy, but I want to be able to see more as well so I can learn to interpret the information coming through my hands.
I am planning to learn from Sarah Weiss (www.spirithealonline.com) at the nearest opportunity, which may be January. Her meditations on her website I know I mentioned before, but I really like them. I felt so her energetic work so strongly during our sessions that I am very drawn to learning her methods and becoming attuned to the energy as she is.
Meanwhile, I will continue to strengthen my receptors in working with the higher guidance as much as I can. Tomorrow night I’ll do my first Colors of Angels attunement. I have one more person wanting that attunement, which I’m doing for her next week. Afterward, once I have feedback that all is well, I will post and offer the attunement here. So stay tuned, friends!
Yesterday, my almost-9 year-old daughter Rayna came with me to give volunteer Reiki healing at the Reiki center at Ursuline College. Rayna is Reiki level 2, and we channeled Reiki healing together to a person who came in to receive Reiki. It was a strong Reiki experience for our recipient, and all were touched by the presence of a child giving healing energy with her mom. It was good for all of us. Rayna said she wants to do it again next week.
And….some exciting news is that I emailed Warren Grossman, the author of a book that’s deeply impressed me lately, To Be Healed by the Earth. He lives here in the Cleveland area. I asked him if he would be willing to come and speak to my teen students in the Seeking Connections course I’m teaching. He said yes!!! We set a date for Nov. 13, and he asked me to invite other classes and staff to come too. It’s quite perfect for my class, because not only is his story inspiring, but he’s also Jewish, and I’m teaching this as a Jewish course on connecting to a spiritual source other than by formal prayer. I think his visit will be a highlight and I’m very grateful that he accepted so willingly.
I’ve found lately also that when I try to connect with another person’s energy for the purpose of asking a question of the person’s guides or higher insight, afterward my third eye chakra tingles for a while. It’s good. I like knowing that I’m growing in ways I’ve been longing for.
And, dear readers, you can now visit me on Facebook with the throngs of our other friends out there in Internetland. So come on over and leave me a message on my wall.
My grandma is 87 years old, though she’s really one of those “87 years-young” people. She drives a red sports car, and takes courses, volunteers daily at a Senior Center near her house – walks there – bakes cookies, makes dolls and beaded necklaces, and comes for dinner every Friday night. She’s great.
I’ve given her Reiki a few times, and she’s liked it and said it helped her. She has recently developed an infection in one leg, and she is taking antibiotics for it. I gave her Reiki a few times, which did help. Yesterday she came over and I attuned her to Reiki and taught her how to call in the energy, and some hand positions for giving herself Reiki treatments. I told her to practice and the sensations would get stronger.
I have to admit that my attunement was a little awkward because I had to refer to my manual several times; it’s been a while since I’ve done any. I realized that I’d better brush up because I’m going to be teaching a Reiki class next month! I know it worked, though, because it’s the intention that passes on the ability to channel the energy, even if the procedure isn’t perfect.
I’m also having some mild detox symptoms, either from doing the attunement or from my most recent Kundalini Reiki attunement. Strange moments of overwhelming emotion, a little gastric discomfort, and some weird tingles in my legs. Not a problem because I recognize them for what they are, and they’ll pass soon.
I thought for a second about attuning Grandma to Kundalini Reiki, because the attunement process is so absolutely simple, but at the same time, I do believe that it’s best to start with the basic Usui Reiki Ryoho to get a feel for channeling the energy. I just want to do the most basic, pure original form for her because I think it will be best for Grandma at this point.
Wow – my grandma is 87 and now she can channel Reiki.